AMP: Artists' Meeting Place and Resource Collective

10 July 2006, 11 am

This will be the place where I write all of the things I shouldn't have made public.

You know all those stories you always hear of "idiots" who start blogs where they bitch about their jobs and coworkers and then get fired when Boss finds out? It's gonna be like that.

This journal will burn bridges and hopefully facilitate building new ones. It's a way for you to get to know me, and a way for me to know myself.

You see, I don't really have a coherent identity like many people do. Or at least, not one that I'm sufficiently aware of to do anything with. I never developed a Persona - I am many different things to many different people - fuck!

There has to be a way to make this interesting.

All through my adolescence, I was always trying to be so grown up and jaded, that I never went through all the experimentation with identity and posturing and frustration that is necessary to figure out who you are, and so now, with no personal mythology, no heroes, no real sense of self or even place (more on that later), I am totally fucked.

So I have to go through it all now.

I think when people write blogs, they are on some level conscious of what kind of person they want to portray themselves as - what aspects of themselves they would like to emphasize. This is why many people have more than one blog - they are for different things.

This journal, however, is different. At this time I have no idea who I am, let alone what I want you to *think* I am, so all I can do is post my thoughts as they develop, censoring nothing, until a picture develops over time.

There will be commentary on news, there will be reviews , but there will also be moments where I call out my friends and enemies on their shit, try to sort out my various neuroses (probably a lot of that), and generally whine and cry about things that might not really matter.

In short, it will be one embarrassment after another, set in a medium deeper and more enduring than stone.