AMP: Artists' Meeting Place and Resource Collective

7 August 2006

I'm just really uncomfortable talking to people - I rarely feel like I communicate effectively with anyone about anything; even the most basic concept gets lost in the transmission.

And writing is even worse. Every time I read something, it sounds different to me. I write things down and I have no idea how they will be received on the other end of things.

Writing a simple email is a total chore for me because even a single paragraph can take an hour of revision before I can commit. I write a sentence and erase it. Write and erase, write and erase. Finally, it gets sent, often days or weeks after I had originally intended to send it, and soon I find myself obsessing over whether I was too honest, whether my attempts at humor are lame, whether the sentences could even be parsed in a way that makes any kind of sense. And then I reread it over and over again, and it looks like the ramblings of a crazy person.